Urban Voices

A place for emerging urban Christian poets to be heard

July 27, 2007

Vanity

by Jason Abrams

Constantly, I'm thinking subconsciously,
Self ambition or vain conceit is haunting me
(Deliver me), cuz what I feel I feel too freely,
A feeling higher than self-esteem, Be
That I wish it were a lower token,
Part of me feels that since I am open
To the actual emotion it dissolves like lotion,
Yet another feeling merges to the surface
Purposely humbling myself
Feels like putting me on a higher shelf
As though I was better than everybody else.
So either/or -- I still feel screwed
And in the wrong no matter which thing I choose
I wish I could feel in a way where I'm not better
I want to feel how it is expressed in Paul's letter
To the saints of Phillipi
I, try to deny I, with memorization
From the Word of Thy, My Lord
Why does this have to be so hard??

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About this week's author:

Jason Abrams is currently pursuing his Bachelor's degree in Speech Communication with minors in Art and French at the University of Southern Mississippi in Hattiesburg. He was born in Edwards, MS and is a product of the youth program at Voice of Calvary. He loves children and plans to work as the Youth Pastor at VOCF after he graduates. Jason loves yellow and smiley faces. He often goes by the nickname, Smiley. He has been writing poetry since he was 13 years old. He loves reading, reciting, and listening to poetry.

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